Showing posts with label healing trauma and polio. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing trauma and polio. Show all posts

Thursday, June 12, 2014

#tbt Marathon Sports Brookline Run Club - Then and Now

I remember the morning that I woke up during our 2009 Boston Marathon training and knew we needed to start training on the course. Our coach and trainer, Domenick D'Amico was in charge of the Saturday morning Run Club at Brookline Marathon Sports.

From my memoir, "Coming Home: A Memoir of Healing, Hope and Possibility":
When we arrived, Domenick was there along with some other runners. Team McManus was a wee bit nervous not knowing what to expect or what was going to happen today. Ruth Anne had forgotten her hat in our haste to leave the house, but fortunately there was no shortage of hats at Marathon Sports. Domenick said we could pay when we got back to the store.

He was deep in thought about what route we should run today, "Have you run outdoors? Have you done hills?" We answered “yes” to both those questions.

He sent us down Beacon Street to Newton Wellesley Hospital, over to Wellesley, up Concord Rd, over to Route 30 via the Marriott, down Route 30 through Heartbreak Hill, through BC to go around the Reservoir and then back to Marathon Sports for a total of 17.5 miles.

I won't lie here - it was not easy! We did not know where we were going at times; we had to watch out for black ice and negotiate our
way through snow and slush at times along the route; there was a stiff headwind and temperatures were dropping throughout the afternoon; Ruth Anne is recovering from a head cold; at times Tom would set a pace that I couldn't keep up with and I vacillated between sheer exhilaration and dealing with demons from polio days. BUT we did it!!!!

4 hours and 45 minutes after we left Marathon Sports, we returned to a jubilant staff. Alison, the store manager, just back from her own vacation, hugged me so tightly and wanted to make sure we were all okay. I remember her on the Marathon Sports 5 Miler, giving me a high five and also checking in to make sure that I was doing okay. Her love, faith and beautiful Spirit is such a blessing to Team McManus.


We trained with the Run Club every Saturday. Here are photos from our last run before Boston captured by a BU photojournalism doctoral student, Johannes Hirn:



Yesterday I was having one of those "off" days that can happen when living with the late effects of paralytic polio and trauma. Now the off days are a result of overdoing it as opposed to just having days on end of not feeling well. Interestingly enough, even when I feel tired, sore, achy and nauseous, I have a feeling of well being now.

The 6 hour volunteer shift at the Runner's World Expo, training and racing two Sundays in a row along with the regular stresses that happen in life had caught up with me.

By the time 5:30pm came around, I wanted to curl up in bed with a good book but I knew better than to do that.


I headed out to Run Club to meet Tom and to get my run on.

I hadn't seen Spencer in a long time. The great thing about good friends is, you pick up right where you left off.

I was finally able to sign a copy of my memoir for Spencer. The feelings of gratitude for the time he took to fit me with my first pair of running shoes ever grows with each year. His unwavering support for Team McManus and for me warms my heart. He told me once that I am not race walking, I am gliding. He is a coach for Team in Training and coached The One Fund Team for this year's Boston Marathon and his support and encouragement are a blessing to any runner.

Tom and I had our early start and did our own run around the Reservoir while the rest of the Club did Jamaica Pond. It was going to be a recovery run of sorts but I found myself pushing myself at times and enjoying moments of sprinting. I did an average 16 min/mile pace for 3.55 miles with negative splits. I was sweating and feeling much better than before we set out on our run.

We met back at the store. There's an energy of satisfaction that accompanies the sweat and smiles after a run.

I've traveled many, many miles since Spencer fit me with my first pair of running shoes and since our first run in 2009 with the Marathon Sports Brookline Run Club. Here's to making it to the 100 mile club!



My memoir, "Coming Home: A Memoir of Healing, Hope and Possibility" is now available on Amazon.

"Wait, I have one more goal," Mary McManus told her personal trainer in February of 2008 shortly after coming out of her toe up leg brace. "I want to run the Boston Marathon for Spaulding Rehab Hospital." Mary traded in her polio shoes for running shoes and embarked on the journey of a lifetime. Mary McManus was at the height of her career as a VA social worker when she was told by her team at Spaulding Rehabilitation Hospital’s International Rehab Center for Polio in December of 2006 that she needed to quit her job if she had any hope of preventing the progression of post polio syndrome, a progressive neuromuscular disease. In “Coming Home: A Memoir of Healing, Hope and Possibility” Mary takes you on her seven year healing odyssey as a survivor of paralytic polio and trauma from her diagnosis, to taking a leap of faith to leave her award winning career at the VA to heal her life and follow her passion as a poet and writer. You’ll experience her trials, tribulations and triumphs as she trains for and crosses the finish line of the 2009 Boston Marathon and discovers the opportunity for healing in the wake of new trauma: the suicide of her nephew in 2011, and the aftermath of the 2013 Boston Marathon bombings. This is Mary's journey of coming home to her human form free from the influences of the ghastly ghostly invaders who had invaded her sacred earthly home. Her memoir includes journals and blog posts from her seven year healing odyssey. This is her journey of transformation and her message of healing, hope and possibility.

I donate 50% of royalty payments through on line sales to The One Fund to help Boston Marathon survivors and their families. Copies are also available at Brookline Marathon Sports. $5 of each book sold at Marathon Sports is donated to The One Fund.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Be.Here.Now.

In yesterday's post, #Transformation Tuesday, I reflected on my 7 year healing odyssey and how my soul no longer feels restless. I feel contentment in my life for the first time since leaving my career as a VA social worker to heal my life.

One of my friends wrote on Facebook, "You are truly an inspiration, Mary. Please share with me how you can make your soul no longer restless. You are blessed - and we are blessed just knowing you."

I was deeply humbled by her words and replied with: "Thank you so much for your kind words. It just sort of happened over time as I became more and more aware of what was true for me and having the courage to make changes in what was comfortable for me even though it was not right for me. Meditation, journaling, returning to the running community, acceptance, practicing what Tara Brach calls "Attend and Befriend," Aquatics Therapy at Spaulding Rehab, and most recently I was blessed to find a wonderful therapist at Sollievo Massage and Bodywork who incorporates Zero Balancing into our 90 minute sessions. Everything is working together for now."

Here are words of wisdom I pulled together for today's post:

"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."- Groucho Marx

"Today is today and I'm glad it's today." - Dr. Fritz Frederick Smith, founder of Zero Balancing


I love how Fritz talks about the energy of gladness!



Last year, I was blessed to attend a talk and book signing by Tara Brach. I am savoring all the morsels in her book True Refuge.

This morning I found this wonderful Dharma Talk by Tara in which she talks about Attend and Befriend and the fear body:



"If we can slow down even just for a minute, we can shift from fight/flight to attend and befriend."

And in that "sacred pause" between response and reaction, the soul settles, we take a deep breath and we have the opportunity to Be.Here.Now.

Be Here Now (from the soon to be released poetry collection, "Journey Well")

Be here now and celebrate
no longer the victim
a survivor and thriver
filled with beauty
a life once torn and shattered
now a beautiful tapestry
woven together
no more rough edges
open heart
a voice that sings with strains of poetry
life no longer a strain or struggle
a new refrain
as energy flows
the river of life marks a new path
yet all is fleeting
not meant to be captured
but experienced
moments
shared in awe
wonder and mystery
comfort in this gift of presence
trusting all is well.


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